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ISSUE #37
 
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April 2005
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***BIO*** Lisa LaTourette: Lisa LaTourette is a 29 year old poet and fiction writer.  Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in My Favorite Bullet, remark., Mouseion, The Ragged Edge, The Moonwort Review, Expose'd, Words Dance and others.  Her work has been included in such anthologies as A Treasury of American Poetry, and her first book, 'Down These Narrow Alleys: Poems & Stories' will be released in 2005. 
Check out some of her poems at
http://www.raggededge.btinternet.co.uk/otherside9ind.htm,
where she is featured with 6 other poets, and her short stories at
http://www.themoonwortreview.com/Lisa%20LaTourette-Pershan.htm
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obligations
by Lisa LaTourette
by the time i was 20
i knew i wanted as few
obligations
as humanly possible
to clutter my adult life.

i didn't want a degree
i didn't want a career
i didn't care about making money,
getting ahead;
i only wanted to live
to be free
to have time to read books,
write poems
and be left alone.

now, at 30,
i know that obligations
MAKE UP adult life
and that every time
i look over my shoulder
something will always be waiting:
car insurance, registration deadlines,
electric bills, speeding tickets,
flat tires, bounced check fees, holidays, phone calls to return, broken TVs, broken fillings, broken hearts...

i sit on my couch
stubborn and rebellious
ignoring the blink-blink of that
goddamn answering machine,
winter raging outside, a spoiled child,
cup of hot tea
ashtray getting full
alongside my holy stacks of books,
notebooks,
deep sigh
pretending the millions of
seething bubbling crawling responsibilities don't exist.